MENJAGA HATI - Yovie dan Nuno.

Bukan senang nak senang, dan bukan susah nak susah. Kan?

Tak susah kan nak jaga hati orang? Jangan cakap merepek2 konsep2 tak sayang mulut. Jangan buat muka macam ko je ada muka. Jangan jadi talam. Jangan pura2 angelic depan setan di belakang.

Tak susah semua itu. Tapi ada orang feeling2 nak nampak lagi baik, lagi bagus dari orang lain.

Kenapa ek? Adakah dengan kelihatan sebegitu maka fungsi tubuh ko pon akan lebih bagus dari manusia-manusia biasa?

Same je aku tgok. Fisiologi bagai. Takde pun ko tetibe jadik superhuman.

Aku malas lah. Hidup dah puluh tahun (aku dah 25) tapi pi mai pi mai tang tu jugak. Di takuk lama. Feeling2 urban la, apa la, bercinta macam orang kampung jugak. Kecewa feeling terjun bunuh diri jugak, takde lak orang kampung wat camtu. Poyo tau orang feeling2 urban ni. Kalo ko makan tdo buang air same mcm org lain tkde beza pun. Bukannye kasta ko tetibe naik jadi urban hanj watver tu.

Jaga hati ni lagi penat dari jaga lembu kambing. Lembu kambing leh tambat, leh hambat, leh sebat. Ni hati? Time kita, salah cakap sikit, salah buat sikit, kene JUIH uolz! Buat muka cam haramsss. Time dia, oh, dialah bagus, dialah hebat, DIA JELAH ADA PERASAAN.

Nape aku emo? Well, kenapa tidak?

Adakah kerana aku nampak ceria maka aku tidak boleh emo?

Damn lah ko yang membuat jiwa aku kacau. Aku duk umah parent ni senang je ati. Balik sane je sibuk kene fikir nak jaga hati tu la, ni la.

Sehabis baik menjaga hati, SEIKHLAS mana pon, mulut orang tetap mulut orang. Pantang kita cakap belakang sket, dia kata NGUMPAT. FITNAH. Tang dia je katenye NASIHAT. FUKIEH ko nasihat.

Penat jadik class clown ni. Atau clown la in general senang cerita. ORANG HANYA SUKA BILA KITA BUAT LAWAK. Ceriakan orang lain. BILA KITA EMO, HABIS AH. Macam kita ni takde perasaan. Takde masalah.

Takpelah pasni dah masuk dunia baru. Dunia yang tak perlu nak bermuka-muka, cium bontot orang, hipokrit semata-mata nak disukai. At least aku tak macam lalang, time baik dgn orang tu, pergunakan sepenuhnya, time tak baik tu, tinggal camtu jek. Biarlah aku tak ramai kawan asalkan aku stick with the same crowd.

Dalam manusia tu ada segumpal daging. Baik daging tu, baiklah manusia itu. Tak baik maka tak baik la manusia tu. Itulah hati. Baik tu besar pengertiannya. Moral kena baik. Perangai kena baik. Mulut kena baik.

JUST LEAVE BITCH-TALKING TO THE BITCH, shall we?

'Coz when you start doin it, don't it make you a BITCH yourself?

Should I say, welcome to the club, now?

DAA!

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